I find it fascinating, and at the same time a bit uncomfortable that we are never exactly who we think we are. Our personas shift slightly depending upon who we’re interfacing with at the time.
Our core personalities remain, but different sides of ourselves come out when interacting with different people in our lives. There’s usually a “common” us that comes across when meeting someone for the first time, at least in the first few minutes. But it shifts rather quickly into an actual persona that we can’t help but filter through in our dealings with this person forever more.
With some people, I automatically shift into a more leadership, mentoring persona, while with others it’s more subservient, and with others it’s more domineering. Still, with others, it’s more chummy. But the most fascinating part is how quickly it settles into a permanent role, and it often doesn’t seem to make any logical sense based upon hierarchical position, status, or role.
Is it chemical? Is it aural? Is it based on something locked inside us from early childhood experiences? It’s probably a combination of all of these. I guess this is why we decide early on if we like someone or not, and why a personality conflict seems to exist before opportunity for one even presents itself.
As I became more aware of this phenomenon, I tried experimenting by pretending that I’m dealing with someone else. But I believe for most of us, this is simply not possible. It feels forced and unnatural, and we quickly revert back to our roles in the relationship.
I’ve also tried this experiment at meetings, thinking it may be more difficult because of the variety of personalities in the same place, but the personas seep through depending upon who’s getting my focus at the time. I think a lot of this awareness is inward, and not as obvious to the people around us. But you start to pick up similar behavior with people you are very close to.
I can see it in my wife’s relationships, but outward observation is not as distinctive as inward — I can sense a few minor persona differences in her relationships, but I’m sure there’s a lot more color in her awareness than I could experience. At the same time, I’m sure she sees me only slightly different in my interactions, but inwardly I feel my personas more distinctly.
So who is the real me? The real you? Is it the sum total of all our interactions with others? Or is it our inner voice? Is this a good thing? I believe it’s just different sides of our true selves, and what makes us such a complicated species.
A major setback in life can change who you are and you never are the same after that. I know someone who has had chronic pain for 10 years and it has changed them, almost scarring them. Even after this person escaped the pain, she was never the same..
I wonder how a major life changing event would color interactions on an individual basis. Would the color of some relationships reverse? Would the leader become the led? Would the subservient become domineering? Or would the relationships stay similar, but more or less intense than before?
Also, would a major setback have a different long-term effect than several smaller setbacks? In evaluating some of my major vs. accumulated smaller setbacks I think I notice a different long-term effect between those. Feels like another blog post…
Mark, I think you would be an ideal candidate for this contest because you like to write and you like to help other developers learn and improve themselves. This is should of been emailed to you directly but I do not have your email address. Sorry for going off topic on this one.
http://www.jpboodhoo.com/blog/BuildingASolidCoreYourFutureIsRightAheadOfYouTheContest.aspx
No problem, Michael. I just posted my email address on my About page. It’s actually “Mark” at this address.
Jean-Paul has an incredible attitude, and is definitely an inspiration. This is a very interesting contest. I’m going to try to enter. There’s a few stories I can think of, but I have to think of the most compelling.
Thanks.
I just dove into this and wrote and submitted a story. Thanks for the heads-up, Michael. I subscribe to Jean-Paul’s RSS feed, but have been behind in my reading, and hadn’t seen this yet.